It's official

I'm so excited!! So although my guy and I have been dating, or seeing each other for about 4 months, and been in relationship mode for just over a month. We decided to finally make it official. Last night we finally got to the point where we are comfortable using titles with one another. So he is now officially my boyfriend, and I can finally be introduced as the girlfriend.

I know, I don't need the title, but you know what it's nice. There's an added comfort level there. The fact that it's official almost adds some validity to it.

Environmentalism Bad For the Environment?

Every once and a while I see an article where a celebrity supports a certian cause, and it makes me wonder, what does all that money they make go to use for? They make millions of dollars a day, why can't they PAY someone to research what they support.

Take today for instance, and the upcoming Live 8 Concert. Foxnews.com did an article (http://www.foxnews.com/story/0,2933,160555,00.html) regarding how the aid that's raised by this concert won't actually help Africa at all. The main reason is because most of the artists supporting Live 8 are also supporters of Greenpeace. Greenpeace is very active in discouraging the use of DDT, and other pesticides that could very well save the people, crops, and economy of Africa. Without the use of these products, most likely Africa will remain in its depleated state for eternity. So why don't these celebrities have someone research these things for them before being so vocal in support of the opposition.

This isn't the first time that environmentalism has hurt our environment though. Arizona is experiencing how that becomes true right now. After the devestating wildfires we have experienced over the past two summers, many people advocated clearing the underbrush, or "trash" of the forests. This "trash" dries out every summer and becomes kindling for any extra heat found within the forests during the summer. Many supported cleaning our forests, but environmentalists took their fight to the top and got the Governor to agree with them, ensuring a long and I'm sure devastating wildfire season again this summer.

Leading different lives

*this post has nothing to do with dating*

I lead a very chameleon-like life. I have several distinct groups of friends, that if people from one group were to see me with another, they would probably ask "who is that? That can't be Jessica." Now don't get me wrong some friends transcend the different groups, but for the most part, they are pretty different.

There is a difference between having this chameleon-like life, and living a life of hypocrisy though. I've seen people recently that lead lives where one side of them literally condemns their other side. This doesn't seem right. (Yes I'm referring to religion here) I am a Catholic, and I know that I do not live my life the way that I should in the eyes of the church, but the great thing about being a Catholic is I can ask for forgiveness, be truly sorry, and be seen as clean in God's eyes. I've been bothered lately by seeing people criticize the way others live, when they too, do the same things. They are out there living lives of sin, and then criticizing their friends that do the same things because those acts are seen as un-Christian.

I have one piece of advice for these people: BE HONEST WITH YOURSELF. How does the saying go? People who live in glass houses...

Fear of the unknown

Ok, so I was, and still am fine with being in a relationship with no real definition. If that's the case, how come as soon as it was admitted that there is a relationship I turned into some jealous girl? Ok, not jealous, but overly curious. I think it's because now there's something at stake here. Before I was fine, enjoying my time with this guy, and just letting the time go, but now it's like there's something to lose, so everything worries me. It's so not me!

I've never had a problem with this guy's female friends, and for the most part, I still don't. Hell I've met most of them, and they're super cool, great girls, and I don't care if he hangs out with them. I guess the "fear," curiosity, etc comes from the fear of the unknown. The girls that I don't know anything about are the ones that make me sit up and say "hey what's going on here?" I know, I'm being overly sensitive here, and definitely overly analytical. I mean, why be with me if there's someone else he'd rather be with right. Will all my sensible friends please help put me back in my place here? I'm being an idiot!